Trying to get back to normal

It has been a crazy year.  It has been a hard year.  There is much of the year that I don't remember.  I don't know that I would say that I wouldn't change anything because I sure wouldn't wish this year on anyone.  It seems like everything that could go wrong would but I did learn a few things from this year.  I have the best husband ever.  He does so much for me and I know that I couldn't have made it this far in life without him.  I learned that Heavenly Father loves me and is looking out for me even if I feel like life is not fair.  I have amazing children that are so forgiving and understanding.  I also learned that I have some great friends and family.  It has been a year since my first seizure.  I keep waiting to feel like normal but I don't know if that will ever happen.  Every time I feel like things are getting back to how they were, something new happens and changes my world.  I have decided that rather than waiting to be "normal" I am just going to have to embrace the new me.  The girl that can't juggle as much as she used to, the girl that can't remember a sentence said two minutes ago, the girl that can't remember words and has to explain what they mean and hope that my poor husband can guess what I am trying to say.  I am not going to feel guilty for what I have not accomplished in the last year.  Instead, I am just going to start today with what I have missed doing.  I am going to start reading, baking, crafting, exercising, blogging and just having fun with my kids more.  If I have a bad day and don't get any of that done, I am not going to feel guilty,  I am just going to start a new day.  I know this is easier said than done but at least I have said it.  That in it's self is a large step taken in the right step. :)